“Mama,Why Should I Fear God When He Is Good?”

A question raised by our daughter after our bedtime prayer when I asked  – “Lord, thank you for Journy’s heart, her healthy body, and her mind. I pray that you will bless her with wisdom, and that she will live her life with fear of You…..”

She quickly sat up looking confuse, “Mama, why should I fear God when He is good?”, she asked.

wp-image--2114816481I am not good in explaining things. Sometimes my choice of words are poor and everything I would like to say get all twisted…. but I tried the best I can many times.

She did not get it at first but after a while of reminding myself to talk to her about it, she told me she understood.

Fearing God does not mean hiding or running away from Him.

When we fear God, we acknowledge Him first before we do anything thru prayer, our means of communicating to Him.

We consider what is right and pleasing before Him.  We take heart His teachings, His words and it becomes our guide in making decisions. It give us understanding. It keep us away from trouble.

It teach us to show kindness to others and to ourselves.

Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you. Ephesians 4:31-32

We are to love and care for ourselves because He created us. We are the work of His hands. We should not harm our bodies that He designed.

For no one ever hated his own flesh, but nourishes and cherishes it, just as Christ does the church, Ephesians 5:29

For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them. Ephesians 2:10

We have to give Him the respect and honor that He deserve.

Living with fear of the Lord teach us humility and bring us abundance of peace.

 

But in every nation anyone who fears him and does what is right is acceptable to him. Acts 10:35

 

The fear of the Lord prolongs life, but the years of the wicked will be short. Proverbs 10:27

 

Humility is the fear of the Lord; its wages are riches and honor and life. Proverbs 22:4

 

The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge; fools despise wisdom and instruction. Proverbs 1:7

 

The fear of the Lord is hatred of evil. Pride and arrogance and the way of evil and perverted speech I hate. Proverbs 8:13

 

The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom; all those who practice it have a good understanding. His praise endures forever! Psalm 111:10

 

Be not wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord, and turn away from evil. Proverbs 3:7

 

Blessed is the man who walks not in the counsel of the wicked, nor stands in the way of sinners, nor sits in the seat of scoffers; but his delight is in the law of the Lord, and on his law he meditates day and night. He is like a tree planted by streams of water that yields its fruit in its season, and its leaf does not wither. In all that he does, he prospers. The wicked are not so, but are like chaff that the wind drives away. Therefore the wicked will not stand in the judgment, nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous; … Psalms 1:1-6

 

 

 

 

 

Grateful

This mom is/still wearing a happy face after having a great time swimming today with the little one. She is happy, I am happy.

Time is too short. I hate it when I feel like I am a  slave of it, but I learn to prioritize things. What and who matters the most comes first. 

I don’t mind leaving dirty dishes, not putting clean laundry right away, and serving leftovers or making egg sandwiches for dinner when time is short. 

But I really love to leave the house organize so that when we come home all I have to do is flop in the couch and relax. Anyway, being a mom and wife does teach us to be flexible, unselfish, manage time and prioritize things. It does make us like monsters too when things go wrong because we care too much. 

Let’s not forget to breathe and love the life we are given. Be grateful and keep making memories! 

A happy heart makes the face cheerful. Proverbs 15:13

….. just pondering

DSC_1596abcWe pick on other’s “misfortunes” and their being different from us,and use it to define them. We think we are better, we are on a pedestal, more powerful, and we think it is relieving when we see other’s imperfections. We are so quick to assume that’s who they are base on what we hear and our own judgement. So quick to bring them down. We forgot to look at ourselves, and ponder on our unfortunate circumstances. I am sure, we have our worst nightmares, failures and heavier burden than those we belittle. We probably are living less than them, happier and content, stronger than we think.

Our hateful soul, grudging spirit, and false mouth has its own place… and this, is very true: “A good man brings good things out of the good stored up in his heart, and an evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in his heart. For the mouth speaks what the heart is full of.” Luke 6:45

Stay away from trouble.

Let go of the hate.

Stop being judgmental.

Be empathetic.

(most importantly) Always guard our hearts.

Be Seen, Be Known

Stay in the light. Let yourself be known. How can help reach out to you when you can’t be seen. It’s no different when you expect something but you never asked. Good things is in the light where you can see it, where the path is clear. There may be struggles but for sure you can see where you’re heading. God is good all the time. Life is never perfect and were never promised to have one. But God promised us that He will never leave us nor forsake us. 

Specific Prayer

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A lot of times I don’t understand how emotions change so quick. I was happy yesterday and then I am feeling miserable the next day. I pray each day to be a good wife and mother so I can take care of my love ones, that is like a common and simple pray I do.

 

But today, I talked to myself that I will specifically ask the Lord to bless me with a clear and sound mind everyday. A positive attitude towards everything around me, a spirit of motivation to do things in the house not just for myself. A refined heart so I can be calm whatever it is that I will go through. Wisdom so I can handle things wisely even if I have to be flexible because I know not all things work the way I expect.

 

I need His grace, so I can breathe and be okay,  be still as I keep moving, may it be slow but with assurance that God is guiding me the whole way through, be reminded that I am not in control but He is, and that I can rest in Him.

 

God is ultimately good!

 

Let everything that has breath, praise the Lord! Psalm 150:6

I See The Light

I saw our trash rolling all around the yard, and unto the road. I just woke up and ready to curl up on the couch but when I look out the window I need to get outside and pick the garbage can before it cause an accident on the road. As soon as I got out of the house, it rolled in the middle of the road and almost hit a car. The car stopped on our neighbor’s yard and I think to pick the garbage can. But I got it. 

Instead of going back to the house, I decided to walk around in the yard. I can see so much work that needs to be done. Lots of pruning and cutting to do. More landscaping job awaits. I was heading to the bench to sit but I went the other way due to the muddy ground. Our yard kind of slopes, so all the water runs down after the rain to that farthest part of our 4 acre yard. I see branches laying on the ground, ruined No Trespassing sign from the night before when the wind was howling. I started picking up the branches, cleaning the yard just a little bit or should I say trying to do something to enjoy the sunshine and cool air. It was great excuse for me not to curl up on the couch. As I walk around, still picking branches and piling them up at the back of our house where the fire pit is, I was looking for the crocuses. I see a lot of them looking pale, and the petals are distorted. I see few with petals wide open and looking vibrant. I look at the other part of the yard, and I see tulips leaves peeking out from the ground, looking sharp, bundle of green. And as I drag those branches to the pile, I realize that it takes a lot of sunshine to bloom, to be vibrant, to excel from the ground. It takes a lot of light to see hope that those tulips will soon deliver beautiful flowers of different colors. And those crocuses, their time is today,their moment to shine, to be beautiful, and to show off that this is what light can do to the small creatures on the ground. And those pale crocuses with distorted petals, they are still standing on the ground where I see hope and trust that keep them out from the ground. I still see their purpose, and their existence as it is planned. They are still crocuses same as the rest, equally designed although their time to shine may not be the same. 

I hope I will find joy in every little things I encounter and not forget that God works in mysterioys ways. I won’t understand that all the time. I won’t always have the answers to figure things out but I hope to acknowldege Him in every detail that my eyes can see, my heart can feel, my hand and mind can grasp, and  what my strength can handle. It all comes down to His grace, from picking up garbage, avoiding accident, cleaning up a mess or discovering something simple yet so beautiful, and realizing that there is always hope and that I can trust in His timing. 

God bless you guys and enjoy the light. 

Envy

​It is a sad truth that it is difficult for people to celebrate other’s achievements, doubtful of how they got there, and would even wish it belongs to someone else because the one who worked hard to achieve it, they like the least or maybe they don’t like the achiever at all.

Envy ruins the soul. 

Let’s rejoice the day that the Lord has made even when He planned our days different. He have His reasons. 

Let us not allow our hearts to ache out of our fellows happiness. 

Be cheerful. Be grateful. Let’s celebrate with them. 


A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones.  Proverbs 17:22

Lips Be Kind

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Lips….

speak right,

speak love,

speak life.

Watch out and think,

Before you say out loud.

Don’t hurt,

Say no to devastation.

Speak with praise and rebuke.

Voice out love,

 share uplifting thoughts,

and limitless rescuing words.

Be mindful and sensitive.

It may be better to bite those lips,

or make no sound.

Speak only to lift a lowly heart.

Aim for good.

Aim for love.

Aim to save the day.

Lips be kind always.

Chelle G.

Set a guard, oh Lord, over my mouth; keep watch over the door of my lips. Psalm 141:3

Captivated

What a beauty,

Who can deny,

Your existence,

I am mesmerized.

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I see the blue sky,

I’m feeling the breeze at night,

Countless stars in the night sky,

And the moon spread its light.

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Morning dew every tomorrow,

I looked forward to yesterday.

I hear the birds singing,

What a joy it bring.

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You are close,

Closer than what I think.

You captivated me.

And you’ll always be The One.

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Who amazes my heart,

Who wakes me up in the morning,

Whose air I breathe,

The One who have my heart.

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Stripped Naked Twice

DSC_0010I read great stories from the Bible to our kid, and I get embarrassed when I cry (although she would tell me, “It’s okay Mom.”) as I read because of overwhelming joy and realization of how great and faithful God is.

I read to her with great hope that the moment I read to her or later she will say, “This is God, He is awesome.” And that she will hold on to His grace and acknowledge Him first and always in everything she does before she even thinks of me and remember the stories I shared.

My hope is for the seed to grow and flourish.

When I read the story of Joseph from the book of Genesis, I could not hold myself but cry. It is my favorite Bible story. It seemed like we were watching a movie. It actually kind of did because I can picture images of events as I read the story to her.

God never left Joseph.

Joseph was stripped twice of his right to enjoy God’s favor in his life. When his brothers took off the coat that was made by his father, Jacob, because they were jealous of him, and sold him to the Ishmaelites. When he was forced to prison due to Potiphar’s wife. The world was not in favor of Him to be clothed with radiance, righteousness and no one wants him to be noticed that God is in him and God’s eyes finds favor in his life. He was stripped twice of his dignity so he will look undignified, not deserving, a disgrace. But God had a plan for him. Joseph did not consider everything that happened as misfortune. He did not dwell in hate. He remain faithful and fearful to God. He hold on to Him. He did not think of revenge. Instead he consumed everything and trusted God, and God blessed his life.

Joseph showed compassion to his brothers when he revealed himself to them. He could have blame them or asked one of his servants to put poison on their food when he invited them to his house, but he did not think even for a bit to do such things because he fear God. He love his brothers. Instead he was merciful. He wept and gave them a hug.

His brothers were troubled when their father, Jacob, died. They thought Joseph will treat them different, instead he reassured them prosperity in Egypt until the day he died.

The first time I read this story, I was not a believer. I read it from a very old literature, probably one of my mom’s when she was in college. This story stayed with me until the day I finally got to read it from the Bible. Each time I read this story, it overwhelms me. How can painful events in your life keep you going and stay positive? God’s wonders cannot be understood by human mind until He is ready to reveal His plan, until He is ready to show you how well He put all the pieces together. Trusting and living fearful to Him keep his life on the right track. Whatever the world dictated, how unfavorable he may seemed for those who can’t handle his right decisions, he chose to live peacefully, clean conscience because he fear God.

We were thrilled of how he “trick” his brothers just so he can meet his youngest brother, Benjamin. The second time he did not succeed but revealed himself instead so he can meet his father.

God wants all of us to prosper, to live in peace. My prayer is that we will choose to stay on track with Him no matter how naked we may appear. Acknowledge Him always so we will be reminded of where we are heading in every thing we do.

This Is Today

Snowy Day

Beautiful morning, pretty sky, red is the color just for awhile. White is the ground, our feet is shivering, ‪#‎frozen‬ nose, exhaling warm air against the cold. Soft powder and hard sparkly crystal everywhere, how I gripe about it it’s no fun. Fear of stumbling and flipping cars, it’s beauty can be deceiving. For some it’s fun, but on my way to work, “‪#‎winter‬ should be gone”. But I have to suck it up, it’s coming and going I can’t control. Life has its season and this is it for today. I can’t change its existence but change my heart, to be grateful for the life I have today and the hope to see the bald trees turn green again, to see the ‪#‎tulips‬ and ‪#‎daffodils‬ bloom and listen the ‪‎Rufous Sided Towhee‬ sing. Life is not fair and I can’t live perfect but I can choose the right attitude to live and survive every season. All around me is His and so I am. I guess a complain He doesn’t deserve, but praise. God bless everyone! God is good‬ whatever the season.

Unknown Destiny

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Out of her shell, there she goes; no fear.
She found a new friend name courage,
Accompanied with confidence.
She struts on her way out like a pro,
No cares of what life may be
Today is all that matters,
She’s breathing the air of new life.
Today is the day to celebrate,
For finding herself.
She’s heading to the light,
In pursuit of happiness.
She’s armored with bravery,
In case she meet trouble.
Nothing can bring her down,
Her foundation is tested,
She stood and fought,
And won a battle.
She may not completely understood
what has been.
But today she can clearly see,
The beauty inside her,
the strength she have.
Impossibilities is for those who refuse to believe.
She understands the dictate of her heart,
the wisdom of her mind,
The peace of every strut,
The joy of the moment,
The life she’s leading,
The choices she’s deciding.
She’s relentless.
She’s hopeful.
She’s trusting,
The One inside her,
The One Who is greater
than he who lives in this world.
She was not alone, all along
No wonder, how persevering
Her head held high,
Looking ahead,
Reaching, unstoppable,
And soon she’ll be there,
To that unknown destiny
for non believers.

I Was Alone But I Did Not Cry

Hello, Mary!
She just stared at me,
As I enter her room,
With my hands full,
To check her and her roommate’s vitals.
How are you today?
She answered, “I’m fine, I guess.”
What do you mean?
You’re not sure if you’re fine?
“We’ll I’m okay.”
“I’ve seen a lot of people,
A lot of them, around.
I did not talk to anyone today.
I am alone, but I did not cry.”
You wanna get out of bed?
You wanna sit on your chair?
“I really don’t feel good,
I just want to rest.”
Can get you anything?
A drink? Water or juice?
How about a little snack?
“I am good.”
Okay, I’ll be back,
I’ll see you later.
Ring the bell when you need me.
I got busy with other residents,
Striving to take care of them nicely,
And patiently.
Some nights are stressful,
That it makes me wanna scream,
And hope that my shift is over,
I am not complaining,
Just being truthful.
Some nights are great,
No falls, no ER admission,
But quietness,
Content residents.
When I re-entered Mary’s room,
To check her room-mate,
I glanced at her,
She had her hand up,
Waving at me,
Wide-eyed with a smile in her face.
When it was her turn for her medication,
She probably hated me,
Obvious facial grimaces I noticed.
And….  “Blah, where did you get all this sh&%!”
I laughed,
But she took her pills,
Fancied with apple sauce on the side.

What It Means To Be A Nurse?

I was just thinking of how I love being a nurse.

One night, I was on one of my resident’s room to give her medication. She noticed my colorful band. She told me how pretty it looks. I told her that my daughter and I made it. I decided to give it to her since I know that I can make another. She refused at first knowing that it was made by my daughter and I and she thought there could be something special about it. I insisted, I slipped it thru her wrist, rest assured that it was cheerfully given. She had a big grin in her face and her eyes says it all. The most important part of that moment was when she said, “You know, you can find joy in every little things in this world; but the trouble with us, people, we just look and we don’t see”. I looked at her astonished because some days she is confused and talk to herself a lot.  She asked, “I hope you understand what I mean.” I said, “Yes I do.” She made sense.

This made me realize how much I missed in life and how much I have that I did not realize that I could have been so grateful for.

I imagine my life coming to work sometimes frustrated because of the chaos at home or an eventful traffic on my way to work or just being not in the mood. I though it should be me who could have realize that there is joy in every little things; I am active, young, doing a  lot of stuff from here to there, I could have seen that because I meet a lot of going on everyday. But no, I didn’t. I missed a lot. I haven’t learned enough. Sometimes I am not grateful. I complained. I am blinded with my busy schedule and everything I can think of to excuse and cover myself.

I came to work that day to be her nurse, to make her feel comfortable and that she is well taken care of. Instead, I came to work to be lighten up and to have my mind cleared.

I should not assume that they don’t have anything to do because they just lay in bed or sit in their wheelchair all day, propel themselves back and forth in the hallway, yells and screams wanting to go home. The nursing home is their home. They can be confused, some won’t  recognize their love ones who come to visit, refuse to  eat because they think we, nurses, put poison on it. They curse and can be combative. They have their moments. With all these, they are thinking. In their quiet time maybe they are busy reminiscing the good old days, maybe they are praying, maybe they are waiting and expecting for somebody to come and brighten their day. I don’t know. They’re maybe confused but they are watching what’s going on around them. They live their life for a very long time that they have so much to say and share. I would hear them being grateful. They have a good heart.  They long to go back to their old home and be surrounded with their love ones. It is heartbreaking. They are the ones whose eyes are full of excitement when you enter the room because they realize at least somebody is here to fetch them water or at least to give them time even so little to say hi and look at them. I normally ask how they are doing and they will ask the same which I often miss to acknowledge because I am preoccupied of the next resident to be taken care of.

Last night, I asked the resident if I can sit on her bed while tapping it to make sure I won’t sit on her leg. She said with a laugh, “You forgot! I have no leg on that side.” She is right and with it.  After taking her medication I told her I have to get back to work. She said, “I really would love you to sit here awhile and talk.” As we talked, I told her that my 7 years old daughter would sometimes asked me to just sit and talk to her when she is not busy and I would ask her what she wants to talk about. She would answer, “Let’s talk about life, Mama.” My resident laughed, and it lead her to more questions. I did find time to answer all of it. She finally said with tap on my shoulder, “Okay you can go now, I know you have more work to do.” I got off from her bed side, told her good night. “When will I see you again?” she asked. “I’ll see you next time, I don’t know when.”

What it means to be a nurse is allowing your patient to take your TIME. It’s more than occupying and filling that place. It is more than giving their medication and other medical treatment. It is about seeing, listening and meeting the need that you can’t find on their doctor’s order.

They would rather take your TIME than their medication, I guess.

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From a grateful patient at home who loves to talk about life.

Crushed, Come And Heal Me

Don’t overdo your loving,

Don’t overdo your care,

When you fail me,

It’s hurts so bad,

I can’t understand.

Misfortune becomes unknown to mind,

I haven’t been introduced to it,

My heart was never ready,

To deal with hurt aches and defeat.

I am crushed, I have no one to blame,

I am feeling the angst,

I need to let it go.

Peace is a lot to meet,

Where to find it,

Let there be joy in me,

I am crushed,

Is there anyone hearing me,

Put myself back,

Help me pick up the pieces.

Don’t want to stay so hardened,

Numb to see hope again,

Light the way Great One,

Here is me,

Crushed, come and heal me.

– Chelle G. –

Be Still My Love

Be still my love, and see
Something is beautiful
Deep within, don’t just keep staring.

Be still my love, listen
The voice in your heart,
follow the calling.

Be still my love, and feel
the need to reach out
to care, to love
give sense of belonging.

Be still my love,
Your Lover is bless
  You live life in love with a humble soul.

Be still my love,
Your Lover is here,
Worthy is your waiting.

Be still my love,
Savor the joy.

 

 

– Chelle G. –

She Shared That Bread Like A Little Preacher

The snow is pretty amazing. It truly is beautiful.

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Oh how I would love to touch it and taste it (I recall) when I was still living in the Philippines. I wish I could be there (I thought) when I look at Christmas cards.

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Here I am living in the states for 8 years and still hoping to fall in love with it.

It is okay to watch it fall heavily from the sky as long as I am in the house, and I don’t have to drive on it going to work and coming home. When I can just sit inside our warm house, with the fireplace going on and have a cup of hot chocolate.

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When our daughter heard my husband and I complaining how terrible this weather, she blurted out, “But God gives snow like wool, He scatters the frost like ashes”.  Psalm 147:16. She was talking. Right in our face, in our dining table having while our breakfast.

She said it.

I thought…. “This is the day that the Lord has made, we will rejoice and be glad in it”. Psalm 118:24

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This is the way He likes it, this is His design. What else can I say but praise Him, and wait for the coming season – springtime. He always keep His promise.

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Let it snow then. Let Him showoff His creation. Allow myself to witness what He can do and be amazed.

Keep a cup of hot chocolate in my hand and get cozy in the house.

God is good. He will use a lot of ways to remind us who He is. It is not about me and my day, it’s about Him.

Bless our little girl (4 years old then) who happened to read my daily bread.

She shared THAT BREAD to us that day.

Be blessed!

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