Music & Memories

I have always loved to sing and write songs although I don’t know how to read notes/fancy characters on a music sheet. 
I watched my mother play when I  was little and with inquisitiveness I would sneak her song book and check the pages where chords are. When I learn to play I got so addicted and love it so much that she would hide her guitar because I don’t get my chores done in the house and I burned the rice (dinner) many times. 

I don’t have the greatest quality, high pitch voice but I sing with all my hearts’ desire because I love it. 

We do what we love. It doesn’t matter how it may sound as long as it feels right from the inside. 

Let everything that has breath praise the Lord!  Psalm 150:6

“Mama,Why Should I Fear God When He Is Good?”

A question raised by our daughter after our bedtime prayer when I asked  – “Lord, thank you for Journy’s heart, her healthy body, and her mind. I pray that you will bless her with wisdom, and that she will live her life with fear of You…..”

She quickly sat up looking confuse, “Mama, why should I fear God when He is good?”, she asked.

wp-image--2114816481I am not good in explaining things. Sometimes my choice of words are poor and everything I would like to say get all twisted…. but I tried the best I can many times.

She did not get it at first but after a while of reminding myself to talk to her about it, she told me she understood.

Fearing God does not mean hiding or running away from Him.

When we fear God, we acknowledge Him first before we do anything thru prayer, our means of communicating to Him.

We consider what is right and pleasing before Him.  We take heart His teachings, His words and it becomes our guide in making decisions. It give us understanding. It keep us away from trouble.

It teach us to show kindness to others and to ourselves.

Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you. Ephesians 4:31-32

We are to love and care for ourselves because He created us. We are the work of His hands. We should not harm our bodies that He designed.

For no one ever hated his own flesh, but nourishes and cherishes it, just as Christ does the church, Ephesians 5:29

For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them. Ephesians 2:10

We have to give Him the respect and honor that He deserve.

Living with fear of the Lord teach us humility and bring us abundance of peace.

 

But in every nation anyone who fears him and does what is right is acceptable to him. Acts 10:35

 

The fear of the Lord prolongs life, but the years of the wicked will be short. Proverbs 10:27

 

Humility is the fear of the Lord; its wages are riches and honor and life. Proverbs 22:4

 

The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge; fools despise wisdom and instruction. Proverbs 1:7

 

The fear of the Lord is hatred of evil. Pride and arrogance and the way of evil and perverted speech I hate. Proverbs 8:13

 

The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom; all those who practice it have a good understanding. His praise endures forever! Psalm 111:10

 

Be not wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord, and turn away from evil. Proverbs 3:7

 

Blessed is the man who walks not in the counsel of the wicked, nor stands in the way of sinners, nor sits in the seat of scoffers; but his delight is in the law of the Lord, and on his law he meditates day and night. He is like a tree planted by streams of water that yields its fruit in its season, and its leaf does not wither. In all that he does, he prospers. The wicked are not so, but are like chaff that the wind drives away. Therefore the wicked will not stand in the judgment, nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous; … Psalms 1:1-6

 

 

 

 

 

Grateful

This mom is/still wearing a happy face after having a great time swimming today with the little one. She is happy, I am happy.

Time is too short. I hate it when I feel like I am a  slave of it, but I learn to prioritize things. What and who matters the most comes first. 

I don’t mind leaving dirty dishes, not putting clean laundry right away, and serving leftovers or making egg sandwiches for dinner when time is short. 

But I really love to leave the house organize so that when we come home all I have to do is flop in the couch and relax. Anyway, being a mom and wife does teach us to be flexible, unselfish, manage time and prioritize things. It does make us like monsters too when things go wrong because we care too much. 

Let’s not forget to breathe and love the life we are given. Be grateful and keep making memories! 

A happy heart makes the face cheerful. Proverbs 15:13

….. just pondering

DSC_1596abcWe pick on other’s “misfortunes” and their being different from us,and use it to define them. We think we are better, we are on a pedestal, more powerful, and we think it is relieving when we see other’s imperfections. We are so quick to assume that’s who they are base on what we hear and our own judgement. So quick to bring them down. We forgot to look at ourselves, and ponder on our unfortunate circumstances. I am sure, we have our worst nightmares, failures and heavier burden than those we belittle. We probably are living less than them, happier and content, stronger than we think.

Our hateful soul, grudging spirit, and false mouth has its own place… and this, is very true: “A good man brings good things out of the good stored up in his heart, and an evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in his heart. For the mouth speaks what the heart is full of.” Luke 6:45

Stay away from trouble.

Let go of the hate.

Stop being judgmental.

Be empathetic.

(most importantly) Always guard our hearts.

Be Seen, Be Known

Stay in the light. Let yourself be known. How can help reach out to you when you can’t be seen. It’s no different when you expect something but you never asked. Good things is in the light where you can see it, where the path is clear. There may be struggles but for sure you can see where you’re heading. God is good all the time. Life is never perfect and were never promised to have one. But God promised us that He will never leave us nor forsake us. 

Specific Prayer

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A lot of times I don’t understand how emotions change so quick. I was happy yesterday and then I am feeling miserable the next day. I pray each day to be a good wife and mother so I can take care of my love ones, that is like a common and simple pray I do.

 

But today, I talked to myself that I will specifically ask the Lord to bless me with a clear and sound mind everyday. A positive attitude towards everything around me, a spirit of motivation to do things in the house not just for myself. A refined heart so I can be calm whatever it is that I will go through. Wisdom so I can handle things wisely even if I have to be flexible because I know not all things work the way I expect.

 

I need His grace, so I can breathe and be okay,  be still as I keep moving, may it be slow but with assurance that God is guiding me the whole way through, be reminded that I am not in control but He is, and that I can rest in Him.

 

God is ultimately good!

 

Let everything that has breath, praise the Lord! Psalm 150:6

Reading, The Struggle Is Real

I never like to sit and read. As soon as I notice how thick and how tiny the words are written, I get bored already. But I taught her to read, and I learn to put dramatic effect on my voice when story telling. That was when she was little, and I can’t do it now, because she doesn’t want me to ruin the story. She would push me to read. She will leave the book right where my seat is at the dinner table. I know it is due to be returned but she won’t do it. She would check if the bookmark has been moved. I told her that I don’t understand some words, if everything is written in basic or simple English I will probably read a lot.

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Reading one of Ben Carson’s book. She thinks, he is a brilliant genius.

I find it boring and not interesting because I struggle. It happened many times, when she have tears rolling to her cheeks (literally) or laughing and I just keep on reading without realizing we’re on the climax of the story. Climax, I learned that from her. I would probably use “height” or “thrilling part”. When I hear her say with a look of disappointment , “Mahhmm!”, I probably mispronounced the word “people” as “peepool”.

And since I let her check this journal right at this moment where she is standing beside me, she wanted me to add that the climax is the turning point of the story. Another learning point for me with this kid. She does what I asked her to do and that is to check my grammar and vocabulary.

By the way,  I finished the two books she recommended me to read. She must be proud. LOL!

(She asked me to delete the word LOL because this journal is formal writing not informal writing, according to her, and I don’t need to write slang words. “What if the President of the United States read your journal or whoever the readers are?” She currently is doing formal writing about chocolate milk if she is against it to be banned in school.)

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Her way of relaxing.

 

I was inspired to write this journal after I googled the word epitome which was on one of my friend’s comment on my Facebook post. I realized that if I read more, I would probably develop good grammar and increase my vocabulary.

I See The Light

I saw our trash rolling all around the yard, and unto the road. I just woke up and ready to curl up on the couch but when I look out the window I need to get outside and pick the garbage can before it cause an accident on the road. As soon as I got out of the house, it rolled in the middle of the road and almost hit a car. The car stopped on our neighbor’s yard and I think to pick the garbage can. But I got it. 

Instead of going back to the house, I decided to walk around in the yard. I can see so much work that needs to be done. Lots of pruning and cutting to do. More landscaping job awaits. I was heading to the bench to sit but I went the other way due to the muddy ground. Our yard kind of slopes, so all the water runs down after the rain to that farthest part of our 4 acre yard. I see branches laying on the ground, ruined No Trespassing sign from the night before when the wind was howling. I started picking up the branches, cleaning the yard just a little bit or should I say trying to do something to enjoy the sunshine and cool air. It was great excuse for me not to curl up on the couch. As I walk around, still picking branches and piling them up at the back of our house where the fire pit is, I was looking for the crocuses. I see a lot of them looking pale, and the petals are distorted. I see few with petals wide open and looking vibrant. I look at the other part of the yard, and I see tulips leaves peeking out from the ground, looking sharp, bundle of green. And as I drag those branches to the pile, I realize that it takes a lot of sunshine to bloom, to be vibrant, to excel from the ground. It takes a lot of light to see hope that those tulips will soon deliver beautiful flowers of different colors. And those crocuses, their time is today,their moment to shine, to be beautiful, and to show off that this is what light can do to the small creatures on the ground. And those pale crocuses with distorted petals, they are still standing on the ground where I see hope and trust that keep them out from the ground. I still see their purpose, and their existence as it is planned. They are still crocuses same as the rest, equally designed although their time to shine may not be the same. 

I hope I will find joy in every little things I encounter and not forget that God works in mysterioys ways. I won’t understand that all the time. I won’t always have the answers to figure things out but I hope to acknowldege Him in every detail that my eyes can see, my heart can feel, my hand and mind can grasp, and  what my strength can handle. It all comes down to His grace, from picking up garbage, avoiding accident, cleaning up a mess or discovering something simple yet so beautiful, and realizing that there is always hope and that I can trust in His timing. 

God bless you guys and enjoy the light. 

Envy

​It is a sad truth that it is difficult for people to celebrate other’s achievements, doubtful of how they got there, and would even wish it belongs to someone else because the one who worked hard to achieve it, they like the least or maybe they don’t like the achiever at all.

Envy ruins the soul. 

Let’s rejoice the day that the Lord has made even when He planned our days different. He have His reasons. 

Let us not allow our hearts to ache out of our fellows happiness. 

Be cheerful. Be grateful. Let’s celebrate with them. 


A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones.  Proverbs 17:22

Focus

Fitness has been part of me for a long time. I am not ripped or anything with a low percent of body fat. It is just something I love to do and what it makes me feel on the inside. I am learning about my body as I listen to it. I am happy of the strength, endurance, and flexibility I have. It is not perfect but the fruit of being active is very beneficial.

I describe my fitness journey as  love and hate relationship. Some days, I am motivated and some days is the opposite. I struggle. And time can be too tight to squeeze in everything.

More than a year ago, I joined a fitness group, Be Fit Pinay,  on  Facebook. We share health information from workout to nutrition, before and after,  winning progress and some of our low points. The group is supportive. It challenges me to keep motivated. The downside of it can be depressing when I compare myself with the progress of others. When I feel like I am running behind. It makes me unhappy. It becomes worst when I get fixated with fitness images on the internet and magazines.

I settled myself with the realization that everyone’s body is different. Everyone’s goal is different. My weakness could be their strength and my strength could be their weakness, even the way we perceive every details of life can be different.

Life is not fair but it should not stop oneself to move forward. The success of others should not halt us to trust the process. Make it an inspiration not comparison. Let it be a learning experience instead of making it a reason to doubt and not believe on ourselves.

We really have to focus on our own journey. Face our challenges and goals. Not allowing our motivation and perseverance to be robbed of what is around us. Fear not on others’ expectation instead fix our eyes on where we are heading. This reminds me of Peter on the Book of Matthew 14:28-31:

28 “Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.”

29 “Come,” he said.

Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. 30 But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!”

31 Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?”

Have faith and be blessed. Be the best version of ourselves and make it contagious.

God bless you!

P.S Let’s take this journey as unique individuals. Different in so many ways but special because our body and mind is designed wonderfully by our Creator, Whom we can connect first thing, and Who is able to guide us throughout our day. We need His super power. Nothing lift our spirit up better than our God.

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“With people it is impossible, but not with God; for all things are possible with God.”

Mark 10:27

Captivated

What a beauty,

Who can deny,

Your existence,

I am mesmerized.

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I see the blue sky,

I’m feeling the breeze at night,

Countless stars in the night sky,

And the moon spread its light.

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Morning dew every tomorrow,

I looked forward to yesterday.

I hear the birds singing,

What a joy it bring.

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You are close,

Closer than what I think.

You captivated me.

And you’ll always be The One.

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Who amazes my heart,

Who wakes me up in the morning,

Whose air I breathe,

The One who have my heart.

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In The Quiet

I know God never get tired of the same prayer each day. I always start with giving thanks of how the day is. When it is sunny I would say it. When it is breezy I would say it. I may even sound like a child learning to pray. But I believe that it blesses His heart when we acknowledge Him thru how the sunshine warms our faces and the dew on the grass wet our feet.

DSC_0547I get to enjoy little things around me when I am able to give up my daily routine and step outside, sit under the tree and listen to the birds singing. It is amazing when I can actually watch them closer and sometimes hold my breath, not moving so I won’t startle them and so they can stay longer and to prolong that simple moment.

DSC_0065I struggle each day to get connected with God because I am too busy. But the great thing with God, He never is too busy for me. I feel guilty because He is so good. I know when I have to let go of everything and take time to talk to Him. I can be very busy trying to get stuff done while I am alone. But when the Holy Spirit tag my heart, I learn to just take that moment. I actually like it because I can pray loud in the quietness of my home.

DSC_0575.JPGGod is surely happy when I demand His attention. He sees me learning to humble myself in His presence and acknowledge that He is in control. And God loves me so much that He wants me to experience an intimate period of time at the midst of my business. He never leave me alone. He desires to bless me with peace, joy, and remind me that He prepared a place for me, and that is eternal. But I won’t be a conqueror of all He has in-store for me if I won’t surrender my self to Him.

DSC_0075As of this moment, He wants me to know that His grace is sufficient when my cup is half way empty.

He blesses me with patience. And that waiting for His answer is allowing Him to work in me and for me to know Him, draw me closer to Him. To wait and see what He can do. To teach me to trust Him. To be still and know that He is God

He reassures me to have peace and live life with joy even when His answer could be no. To rejoice, give Him honor and praise whatever His answer might be.

DSC_0571Time is so precious. And I am grateful when I can sit down, forget the chores, enjoy outside, or play my guitar and hum a tune and pray. Sometimes these can be difficult to do because I get so distracted with other things. I make a to-do-list as a reminder of what needs to be done. And I feel so accomplished when I scratch each one at the end of the day.

20150329_153922I hope that the highlight of my day would be being content with the things that really matters. Enjoy solitude. Pray. Do the things that will satisfy my soul in the quiet.

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But Jesus Himself would often slip away to the wilderness and pray. Luke 5:16

This Is Today

Snowy Day

Beautiful morning, pretty sky, red is the color just for awhile. White is the ground, our feet is shivering, ‪#‎frozen‬ nose, exhaling warm air against the cold. Soft powder and hard sparkly crystal everywhere, how I gripe about it it’s no fun. Fear of stumbling and flipping cars, it’s beauty can be deceiving. For some it’s fun, but on my way to work, “‪#‎winter‬ should be gone”. But I have to suck it up, it’s coming and going I can’t control. Life has its season and this is it for today. I can’t change its existence but change my heart, to be grateful for the life I have today and the hope to see the bald trees turn green again, to see the ‪#‎tulips‬ and ‪#‎daffodils‬ bloom and listen the ‪‎Rufous Sided Towhee‬ sing. Life is not fair and I can’t live perfect but I can choose the right attitude to live and survive every season. All around me is His and so I am. I guess a complain He doesn’t deserve, but praise. God bless everyone! God is good‬ whatever the season.